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Monday, April 05, 2004

Disgust, contempt, snobbery: all related. And yet maleable.
Disgust and belief would be linked, as of course so would fear. Very very basic stuff.
Todays note: the tantrum...
Well, there is the big one, the one that goes to rage.
But the small one, the one that says "I just won't do it. Yuck." Its small, but I know I can feel it.

I note, today, the usual feelings of resistance to doing simple things that need to be done. And wonder, is that disgust?
Last night, working at PAW, taking down some sets, I was ready to leave, but I discovered some easter egg shaped m&m's and noticed much later, that I had NOT gone, that I had stayed! And that I kept returning to the cup of candies, and was quieted.
Now, I'm thinking how I have this need to munch while I am reading something, doing something I do NOT want to do... is that a quieting of the stomach, is that a suppressing the "disgust" feeling?

That I have to try: get some small candies, and read, clean the basement, run some errands. Deal with that yucky feeling.